Ange is so tired. Not because of the question, but because of what it makes her think of. ]
It's.. difficult. She worked at my grandfather's mansion, and they let kids from an orphange he sponsors work there to earn money. But that kind of ends up ingraining the whole servant thing in them a little too much, you know? [ Hence why Ange worries that Shannon - especially Shannon, given how overly helpful the girl is - might fall back into old patterns here. Despite it being entirely unnecessary. ] I don't want her to have to worry about that stuff here.
[ But at the same time Ange isn't sure if the other girl can stop worrying about it to begin with. ]
No, you're right - she shouldn't have to worry about that stuff here. We'll just have to... I dunno, discourage her from trying to do all the work here or maybe keep her busy hanging out with everyone or something. I don't know.
[ Not that Ange doesn't think falling back on coping methods when first arriving in such an overwhelming place is valid, but..
.. well, she's not so sure if these coping habits are good ones, when doing all the chores in such a chaotic house might just end up more stressful in the end. ]
I know you're already dealing with a lot right now, but.. maybe we can make a slight exchange? I'm trying to look into the Ozpin thing with Ruby, so maybe you can help talk to Shannon when you happen to see her around the house.
I kind of gave up on the idea that someone from back home could actually show up here. [ Ange figures that if she can share that with anyone, it's with Willow. The other would understand, given her own situation. ] So it's a little.. strange. But not bad, necessarily.
[ And she knows that it isn't bad for Willow either. The other has seemed so happy about it. ]
Guess we better prepare us for the chance of more people appearing now, huh? [ Not that Ange necessarily believes that's what will happen for sure, but.. ]
For all we know, it could mean Trench has opened the floodgates for our worlds.
[ A brief pause, and then Ange adds: ]
And that might not always be a good thing. [ Just the sheer idea of the amount of witches that could get dragged in here from Ange's world full of awful ones is..
[ Part of her wants to say that dwelling on things way too much is her speciality.
But that feels kind of pathetic, and she barely manages to swallow the words back up at the last possible minute. ]
Well..
[ Besides, this feels more important to say. ]
I think the threats from my world might be a little.. too much. [ Ange doesn't even want to think of anyone else from their house facing down Bernkastel. The very idea makes her blood run cold. ] I should deal with those myself.
[Willow raises her eyebrows. She is not letting Ange face anything from home by herself - especially if she can describe it as too much.]
I think if there are threats from home that are a lot, it's all the more reason to stick together. We can take on a lot more if we all try to help each other out than if we do it on our own.
[ That they're all stronger together. It's why she's waffling on this. A long time ago she would have put her foot down over this, refusing to budge.
At this point, it's a lot more complicated. ]
But those witches already took my family from me once. [ And while not necessarily everyone in the house is family - it does feel a little like it sometimes, almost. It's the closest thing to a normal domestic life Ange has ever had. ] I don't know if I can handle it a second time.
[Willow says this with one hundred percent conviction. After a year between Trench and the dream, of course Ange is family. They've been through too much together to not see her that way.]
We'll figure out a way to stop them if they come here. Besides, coming here means they might not even have the same power they did at home.
Yeah, and.. [ Though Ange agrees, there's definitely an awkward edge to her tone. An awkward edge that says her natural tendency to worry doesn't quite let her just accept all of this so easily. ] It's not like they will show up here.
[ It's just a possibility.
But god, if it isn't a terrifying one. ]
But it was a lot easier to put the possibility of that out of my mind before, when it still felt like this place just couldn't pull other people from my world here.
Yeah, that's right. We don't know what's going to happen.
[It is a terrifying possibility, but it feels remote, and Willow is still confident that they will be able to take on any challenge that presents itself.]
People from home were always a possibility, just because we've got someone here now, that doesn't change that. It might not even change the odds of it happening again. It's good to be prepared, but we probably shouldn't worry too much over it unless something actually happens. Billions upon billions of people scattered across an unimaginable number of words - still feels like pretty low chances we'll get someone we don't want.
.. I know it's technically right, so why can't I convince my brain of that as well?
[ Ange sighs. It's a little hard to talk about this, especially given the fact that she usually doesn't like even remotely going near the discussion of anything that feels even a little vulnerable.
But she's trying to be better about sharing this stuff, even if it's making her feel extremely dumb in this moment. (And maybe January's effect on her blood is helping push it along a little too.) ]
Maybe it's since I used to have nothing left to lose. And now..
[ Now she has a house full of people she cares about. Now she has a family, tons of friends.
Things don't get scary until there's something actually on the line. ]
Because in a place like this it's pretty hard not to think of all the worst case scenarios?
[Witches from home showing up in Trench definitely feels like the worst worst case scenario possible as far as Ange's world goes. It's no wonder she's so shaken by the idea.]
Now it's not just you you're worried about. You're not going to lose us, you know that, right? If one of the witches from your home shows up, we'll figure it out. In the meantime, try not to let it get to too much, okay?
It's the very moment that Willow says 'you're not going to lose us' that makes Ange stay silent, even for a moment after the other is done talking. It feels like it presses straight down on a sore spot, on a fear that's been brewing inside of her, even though she feels silly for it. ]
Thanks.. Willow.
[ It means a lot to her. So much, that she's not quite sure she can put it into words. ]
I really hope I'm not going to lose everyone. I'll.. um. I'll try to believe in it.
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Ange is so tired. Not because of the question, but because of what it makes her think of. ]
It's.. difficult. She worked at my grandfather's mansion, and they let kids from an orphange he sponsors work there to earn money. But that kind of ends up ingraining the whole servant thing in them a little too much, you know? [ Hence why Ange worries that Shannon - especially Shannon, given how overly helpful the girl is - might fall back into old patterns here. Despite it being entirely unnecessary. ] I don't want her to have to worry about that stuff here.
[ But at the same time Ange isn't sure if the other girl can stop worrying about it to begin with. ]
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[Willow gives an understanding nod.]
No, you're right - she shouldn't have to worry about that stuff here. We'll just have to... I dunno, discourage her from trying to do all the work here or maybe keep her busy hanging out with everyone or something. I don't know.
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[ Not that Ange doesn't think falling back on coping methods when first arriving in such an overwhelming place is valid, but..
.. well, she's not so sure if these coping habits are good ones, when doing all the chores in such a chaotic house might just end up more stressful in the end. ]
I know you're already dealing with a lot right now, but.. maybe we can make a slight exchange? I'm trying to look into the Ozpin thing with Ruby, so maybe you can help talk to Shannon when you happen to see her around the house.
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You don't have to offer an exchange for that. I'll talk to Shannon anyway.
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So Ange supposes she can live with it, though she still flusters just a tad. ]
Thanks. I guess I shouldn't have expected any different though. You're way too nice.
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[ It's an instinctive sound. Like Ange is trying to think of some sort of protest here, but can't find any.
Which means she instead shuts up, her cheeks faintly pink. Realising that Willow is right about this one. ]
I guess we have both had arrivals from our worlds recently..
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Yeah, we have. It's kinda cool, huh? Especially so close together after both of us being here without anyone from home for so long.
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[ There's a pause, and then, more sincerely: ]
I kind of gave up on the idea that someone from back home could actually show up here. [ Ange figures that if she can share that with anyone, it's with Willow. The other would understand, given her own situation. ] So it's a little.. strange. But not bad, necessarily.
[ And she knows that it isn't bad for Willow either. The other has seemed so happy about it. ]
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[Willow completely understands where Ange is coming from.]
It's a little weird for me too. Especially with the unexpected part, and that it's been so long. But it's still nice.
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For all we know, it could mean Trench has opened the floodgates for our worlds.
[ A brief pause, and then Ange adds: ]
And that might not always be a good thing. [ Just the sheer idea of the amount of witches that could get dragged in here from Ange's world full of awful ones is..
.. well, a lot. ]
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She doesn't want to think about it.]
Yeah. Try not to dwell on it too much, huh? Whatever happens, we'll deal with it as a group.
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But that feels kind of pathetic, and she barely manages to swallow the words back up at the last possible minute. ]
Well..
[ Besides, this feels more important to say. ]
I think the threats from my world might be a little.. too much. [ Ange doesn't even want to think of anyone else from their house facing down Bernkastel. The very idea makes her blood run cold. ] I should deal with those myself.
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I think if there are threats from home that are a lot, it's all the more reason to stick together. We can take on a lot more if we all try to help each other out than if we do it on our own.
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[ That they're all stronger together. It's why she's waffling on this. A long time ago she would have put her foot down over this, refusing to budge.
At this point, it's a lot more complicated. ]
But those witches already took my family from me once. [ And while not necessarily everyone in the house is family - it does feel a little like it sometimes, almost. It's the closest thing to a normal domestic life Ange has ever had. ] I don't know if I can handle it a second time.
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[Willow says this with one hundred percent conviction. After a year between Trench and the dream, of course Ange is family. They've been through too much together to not see her that way.]
We'll figure out a way to stop them if they come here. Besides, coming here means they might not even have the same power they did at home.
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[ It's just a possibility.
But god, if it isn't a terrifying one. ]
But it was a lot easier to put the possibility of that out of my mind before, when it still felt like this place just couldn't pull other people from my world here.
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[It is a terrifying possibility, but it feels remote, and Willow is still confident that they will be able to take on any challenge that presents itself.]
People from home were always a possibility, just because we've got someone here now, that doesn't change that. It might not even change the odds of it happening again. It's good to be prepared, but we probably shouldn't worry too much over it unless something actually happens. Billions upon billions of people scattered across an unimaginable number of words - still feels like pretty low chances we'll get someone we don't want.
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[ Ange sighs. It's a little hard to talk about this, especially given the fact that she usually doesn't like even remotely going near the discussion of anything that feels even a little vulnerable.
But she's trying to be better about sharing this stuff, even if it's making her feel extremely dumb in this moment. (And maybe January's effect on her blood is helping push it along a little too.) ]
Maybe it's since I used to have nothing left to lose. And now..
[ Now she has a house full of people she cares about. Now she has a family, tons of friends.
Things don't get scary until there's something actually on the line. ]
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[Witches from home showing up in Trench definitely feels like the worst worst case scenario possible as far as Ange's world goes. It's no wonder she's so shaken by the idea.]
Now it's not just you you're worried about. You're not going to lose us, you know that, right? If one of the witches from your home shows up, we'll figure it out. In the meantime, try not to let it get to too much, okay?
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It's the very moment that Willow says 'you're not going to lose us' that makes Ange stay silent, even for a moment after the other is done talking. It feels like it presses straight down on a sore spot, on a fear that's been brewing inside of her, even though she feels silly for it. ]
Thanks.. Willow.
[ It means a lot to her. So much, that she's not quite sure she can put it into words. ]
I really hope I'm not going to lose everyone. I'll.. um. I'll try to believe in it.